New country - life...
New country - New life - New state of mind ...
Ever since my adolescence I had this feeling of not living in a country/city that truly felt like home. Without being able to pinpoint the exact reason (of course there are some I could mention), this feeling only grew stronger with age.
In the past year I’ve brought many changes into action in my life, some of them bringing an immediate feeling of liberation, others still unfolding their impact on to new developments of my inner self and the person I’m becoming.
Be-coming, to me is one of the most beautiful, perpetual challenges in life…
Lately the feeling of being held back by the energy of the country/city I was living in only grew stronger. Earlier one way or the other the timing wasn’t ever right. I always wanted to do it but I guess I held myself back by giving in to some of my conscious and subconscious fears.
Four weeks ago I felt totally fed up with my environment, country, situations…
I felt a certain urge to welcome some new energies, oxygen and stimuli into my life.
One of the reasons, I noticed that I was starting to turn in circles when it came to some emotions and situations I experienced as negative and energy absorbing. I didn’t have to think it through too long, not giving that little voice of fear any chance what so ever for possibly making me change my mind.
As I talk a lot about trashing comfort zones and creating your own path in life, I told myself once more to "walk my own talk".
Once a decision made, I like to put it into immediate action, so about three weeks ago I made a jump across the border.
Of course these first few weeks, a lot of old and new emotions have been overflowing me…However the full reach of my decision hasn’t completely unfolded itself yet, it starts to feel like quite the liberating “jump”…
So new city, new life… Each day I am discovering new sights, meeting new people,… But in addition to that I am discovering myself in new and interesting perspectives.
Here I am, just me … Nothing… nearly nothing to hold on to…
These last few weeks I came to discover with every new day, every new meeting I am getting confronted with patterns and some of my fears I had been carrying around for so long.
Starting all over starts with facing those demons belonging to our past. If not, chance is we’ll end up in similar situations or dealing with emotional patterns we no longer want to happen.
When you feel that passion inside, steering you towards new goals, chapters in life, this certain heartfelt passion will lead you towards moments of extreme heights.
On the other hand, there are these moments of being thrown into old processes of fears and emotions, luring around the corner, whenever you let that nasty old companion “self doubt” enter your thoughts.
But even these fear based processes contain a certain amount of valuable information. Without facing them in all honesty and discovering what kind of information lies within, all effort will have been in vain.
Living through every process of attaining “the next level” (mind-action), aware or unaware, consists of certain levels of duality.
This duality, on it’s turn, contains certain precious amounts of valuable information one needs in order to develop a new, satisfying and “deep rooted” base,... imminent to continue step by step towards the next level of growth.
Within all of this you need to look closer at the core of your current processes and ask yourself:
- Is it authentic to me?
- What information is there to be found within the core of my hesitation?
- Where do I want to go from here?
- What doesn’t suit me any longer?
- What kind of life will give me a sense of fulfillment and what steps will get me closer?
However some things might not be completely crystal clear today, I’m feeling this amazing energy and absolute excitement to discover what lies beyond!
But as for today ... I am happy!
Grant yourself that soul driven step you’ve always been wanting to take!!